Thanks again for everybodys different perspectives. It seems to me any guilt we feel is clearly a question of attitude.
Has my attitude changed having read your comments? Well my leaving the Watchtower with its customs is perceived as evil by the congregation and giving a victory to Satan. So where have my so called friends been? Its true i ve been contacted by the elders but i sence that they are displeased with me and i thought it wise not to answer their questions.
Maybe my friends trapped live not by faith but hope. That hope may be for good reason. And with out that hope there is nothing nor reason to live. Maybe my stategy of keeping quite was sensible i am through with teaching and will simply live in my happy present state if i can.